Make it!

There will come a day when everything will change for you. When, after years of finely tuning your cynicism and sarcasm and disinterest, you will feel like you are falling apart. Something will probably set it off. Maybe you'll see horses and wonder what it means to be truly free. Maybe you'll watch the movie Tombstone and it will cause you to question the authenticity of your own existence. But you'll slowly realize that your list of things you dislike is a lot longer than the list of things you do like. You'll start to notice that its easier to pick something apart than to praise it. You will see how casual conversation effortlessly turns cynical and sarcastic and it always has but it never bothered you before but now it makes you feel kind of sick. But then, when you feel like you are going to bust, something will happen. Your heart will start beating so hard you'll remember that you have one and you'll grab your chest because you'll feel like you have to. You will be delivered. Old ideas will be fresh and tired advice will come back to life and food will even taste better for some reason and you'll see it all through these huge new eyes. You'll stop dissecting everything and start taking everything at face value. And when that finally happens, this is the song you'll listen to.

Mama Cass Elliot "Make Your Own Kind of Music"